Taleswapper's eyes narrowed.
"A hypocrite," Calvin said again. "Pretending to be what you're not. So
other people will trust you, but they're trusting in a bunch of pretenses."
"That's an interesting idea, there, Calvin," said Taleswapper. "Where do
you draw the line between a humble man who knows his own weaknesses but
tries to act out virtues he hasn't quite mastered yet, and a proud man who
pretends to have those virtues without the slightest intention of acquiring
them?"
"Listen to the frontiersman now," said Calvin scornfully. "I knew you
could shed that folksy talk the minute you wanted to."
"Yes, I can do that," said Taleswapper. "Just as I can speak French to a
Frenchman and Spanish to a Spaniard and four kinds of Red talk depending
on which tribe I'm with. But you, Calvin, do you speak Scorn and Mockery toeveryone? Or just to your betters?"
It took Calvin a moment to realize that he had been put down, hard and
low. "I could kill you without using my hands," he said.
"Harder than you think," said Taleswapper. "Killing a man, that is. Why
not ask your brother Alvin about it? He's done it the once, for just cause,
whereas you think of killing a man because he tweaks your nose. And then
you wonder why I call myself your better."
"You just want to put me down because I named you for what you are.
Hypocrite. Like all the others."
"All the others?"
Calvin nodded grimly.
"Everyone is a hypocrite except Calvin Miller?"
"Calvin Maker," said Calvin. Even as he said it, he knew it was a
mistake; he had never told anyone the name by which he thought of himself,
and now he had blurted it out, a boast, a brag, a demand, to this most
unsympathetic of listeners. This man who was most likely, of all men, to
repeat Calvin's secret dream to others.
"Well, now it seems to be unanimous," said Taleswapper. "We're all
pretending to be something that we're not."
"I am a maker!" Calvin insisted, raising his voice, even though he knew
he was making himself seem even weaker and more vulnerable. He just
couldn't stop himself from talking to this slimy old man. "I've got all the knack
for it that Alvin ever had, if anyone would bother to notice!"
"Made any millstones lately, without tools?" asked Taleswapper.
"I can make stones in a fence fit together like as if they growed that way
out of the ground!"
"Healed any wounds?"
"I killed a bug crawling on my leg just a moment ago without so much as
laying a hand on it."
"Interesting. I ask of healing and you answer with killing. Doesn't sound
like a maker to me."
"You said yourself that Alvin killed a man!"
"With his hands, not with his knack. A man who had just murdered an
innocent woman who died to protect her son from captivity. The bug -- was it
going to harm you or anyone?"
"Yes, there you are, Alvin is always righteous and wonderful, while Calvin
can't do nothing right! But Alvin hisself told me the story of how he caused a
bunch of roaches to get theirselfs kilt when he was a boy and --"
"And you learned nothing from his story, except that you have the power
to torment insects."
"He gets to do what he wants and then talks about how he's learned
better now, but if I do the same things then I'm not worthy! I can't be taught
any of his secrets because I'm not ready for them only I am ready for them, I'm
just not ready to let Alvin decide how I'll use the knack I was born with. Who
tells him what to do?"
"The inner light of virtue," said Taleswapper, "for lack of a clearer name."
"Well what about my inner light?"
"I imagine that your parents ask themselves this very question, and
often."
"Why can't I be allowed to figure things out on my own like Alvin did?"
"But of course you are being allowed to do exactly that," said
Taleswapper.
"No I'm not! He sits there trying to explain to those boneheaded no-knack followers of his how to get inside other things and learn what they are
and how they're shaped inside and then ask them to take on new forms, as if
that's a thing that folks can learn --"
"But they do learn it, don't they?"
"If you call an inch a year moving, then I guess you can call that
learning," said Calvin. "But me, the one who actually understands everything
he says, the one who could actually put it all to use, he won't even let me in the
room. If I stay there he just tells stories and makes jokes and won't teach a
thing until I leave, and why? I'm his best pupil, ain't I? I learn it all, I soak it
in fast and I can use it on the instant, but he won't teach me! He calls them
others 'apprentice makers' but me he won't even take on for a single lesson, all
because I don't bow down and worship whenever he starts talking about how a
maker can never use his power to destroy, but only to build, or he loses it,
which is nonsense, since a man's knack is his knack and --"
"It seems to me," said Taleswapper, his voice sharp enough to cut
through Calvin's raging, "that you are a singularly unteachable young man.
You ask Alvin to teach you, and he tries to do it, but then you refuse to listen
because you know what's nonsense and what matters, you know that a man
doesn't have to make in order to be a maker, you already know so much I'm
surprised you still wait around here, wishing for Alvin to teach you things that
you plainly have no desire to know."
"I want him to teach me how to get into the small of things!" cried Calvin.
"I want him to teach me how to change people the way he changed Arthur
Stuart so the finders couldn't find him anymore! I want him to teach me how
to get inside bones and blood vessels, how to turn iron to gold! I want me a
golden plow like his and he won't teach me how!"
"And it has never occurred to you," said Taleswapper, "that when he
speaks of using the power of making only to build things up, never to tear them
down, he might be teaching you precisely the thing you are asking? Oh,
Calvin, I'm so sorry to see that your mama did have one stupid child after all."
Calvin felt the rage explode inside himself, and before he knew what he
was doing he knocked the old man down and straddled his hips, pounding on
his frail old ribs and belly. It took many blows before he realized that the old
man wasn't fighting back. Have I killed him? Calvin wondered. What will I do
if he's dead? They'll have me for murder, then. They won't understand how he
provoked me, begging for a beating. It's not like I planned to kill him.
Calvin put his fingers to Taleswapper's throat, feeling for a pulse. It was
there, feeble but it probably was always feeble, given how old the fellow was.
"Didn't quite kill me, eh?" whispered Taleswapper.
"Didn't feel like it," said Calvin.
"How many men will you have to beat up before everyone agrees that
you're a maker?"
Calvin wanted to hit him again. Didn't this old man learn anything?
"You know, if you hurt people enough, eventually they'll all call you
whatever you want. Maker. King. Captain. Boss. Master. Holy One. Pick
your title, you can beat people into calling you that. But you don't change
yourself a bit. All you do is change the meanings of those words, so they all
mean the same thing: Bully."
Calvin, hot with shame, got up and stood over him. He restrained
himself from kicking the old man until his head was jelly. "You've got a knack
for words," he said.
"True words in particular," said Taleswapper.
"Lies, from all I can see," said Calvin.
"A liar sees lies," said Taleswapper. "Even when they aren't there. Just
as a hypocrite sees hypocrites whenever he runs across good people. Can't
stand to think that anyone might really be what you only pretend to be."
"You did say one true thing," said Calvin. "About its making no sense me
waiting around here for Alvin to teach me what he plainly means to keep
secret. I should've realized that Alvin wasn't never going to teach me anything,
because he's afraid if people see me doing all the things he can do, he won't be
king of the hill anymore. I have to find it out on my own, just like he did."
"You have to find it out by learning the same things he did," said
Taleswapper. "Alone or as his pupil, though, I don't think you're capable of
learning those things."
"You're wrong," said Calvin. "I'll prove it to you."
"By learning to master your own will and use your power only to build
things, only to help others?"
"By going out into the world and learning everything and coming back
and showing Alvin who's got the real maker's knack and who's just
pretending."
Taleswapper propped himself up on one elbow. "But Calvin, your actions
here today have made the answer to that question as plain as day."
Calvin wanted to kick him in his face. Silence that mouth. Break that
shiny pate and watch the brains spill out into the meadow grass.
Instead he turned away and took a few steps toward the woods. He had
a destination this time. East. Civilization. The cities, the lands where people
lived together cheek by jowl. Among them there would be those who could
teach him. Or, failing that, those he could experiment with until he learned all
that Alvin knew, and more. Calvin was wrong to have stayed here so long.
Foolish to have kept hoping that he'd ever get any love or help from Alvin. I
worshipped him, that was my mistake, thought Calvin. It took this
boneheaded old fool to show me the kind of contempt that people have for me.
Always comparing me to Alvin, perfect Alvin, Alvin the maker, Alvin the
virtuous son.
Alvin the hypocrite. He does with his power just what I want to do --
only he's so subtle about it that people don't even realize he's controlling them.
Tell us what to do, Alvin! Teach us how to make, Alvin! Does Alvin ever say,
It's not your knack, you poor fool, I can't teach you how to do this any more
than I can teach a fish to walk? No. He pretends to teach them, helps them
get a few pathetic illusory successes so they stay with him, his obedient
servants, his disciples.
Well, I'm not one of them. I'm my own man, smarter than he is, and
more powerful, too, if I can just learn what I need to learn. After all, Alvin was
only a seventh son for a couple of moments after he was born, until our oldest
brother Vigor died. But I have been a seventh son my whole life, and still am
one today. Before long I'm bound to surpass Alvin. I'm the real maker. The
real thing. Not a hypocrite. Not a pretender.
"When you see Alvin, tell him not to follow me. He won't see me again
until I'm ready for him to square off against me, maker against maker."
"There can never be a battle of maker against maker," said Taleswapper.
"Oh?"
"Because if there's a battle," said Taleswapper, "it's because one of them,
at least, is not a maker at all, but rather its opposite."
Calvin laughed. "That old wives' tale? About some supposed Unmaker?
Alvin tells the stories, but it's all a bunch of hogwash to make him look like
more of a hero."
"I'm not surprised that you don't believe in the Unmaker," said
Taleswapper. "The first lie the Unmaker always tells is that he doesn't exist.
And his true servants always believe him, even as they carry out his work in
the world."
"So I'm the Unmaker's servant?" asked Calvin.
"Of course," said Taleswapper. "I have the bruises on my body now to
prove it."
"Those bruises prove you're a weak man with a big mouth."
"Alvin would have healed me and strengthened me," said Taleswapper.
"That's what makers do."
Calvin couldn't take any more of this. He kicked the man right in the
face. He could feel Taleswapper's nose break under the ball of his foot; then
the old man flopped back into the grass and lay there still. Calvin didn't even
bother to check his pulse. If he was dead, so be it. The world would be a
better place without his lies and rudeness.
Not until he was well into the woods, about five minutes later, did the
enormity of what he had done flow over him. Killed a man! I might have killed
a man, and left him to die!
I should have healed him before I left. The way Alvin healed people.
Then he would have known that I'm truly a maker, because I healed him. How
could I have missed such an opportunity to show what I can do?
At once he turned and raced back through the forest, dodging the roots,
skittering down a bank he had so eagerly climbed only moments before. But
when, panting, he emerged into the meadow, the old man wasn't there, though
bits of blood still clung to the grass and pooled where his head had lain. Not
dead, then. He got up and walked, so he can't be dead.
What a fool I was, thought Calvin. Of course I didn't kill him. I'm a
maker. Makers don't destroy things, they build them. Isn't that what Alvin
always tells me? So if I'm a maker, nothing I do can possibly be destructive.
For a moment he almost headed down the hill toward the millhouse. Let
Taleswapper accuse him in front of everybody. Calvin would simply deny it,
and let them work out how to deal with the problem. Of course they'd all
believe Taleswapper. But Calvin only needed to say, "That's his knack, to make
people believe his lies. Why else would you trust in this stranger instead of
Alvin Miller's youngest boy, when you all know I don't go around beating people
up?" It was a delicious scene to contemplate, with Father and Mother and
Alvin all frozen into inaction.
But a better scene was this: Calvin free in the city. Calvin out of his
brother's shadow.
Best of all, they couldn't even get up a group of men to follow him. For
here in the town of Vigor Church, the adults were all bound by Tenskwa-Tawa's curse, so that any stranger they met, they had to tell him the story of
how they slaughtered the innocent Reds at Tippy-Canoe. If they didn't tell the
story, their hands and arms would become covered with dripping blood, mute
testimony of their crime. Because of that they didn't venture out into the world
where they might run into strangers. Alvin himself might come looking for
him, but no one else except those who had been too young to take part in the
massacre would be able to join with him. Oh, yes, their brother-in-law Armor,
he wasn't under the curse. And maybe Measure wasn't really under the curse,
because he took it on himself, even though he wasn't part of the battle. So
maybe he could leave. But that still wouldn't be much of a search party.
And why would they bother to search for him anyway? Alvin thought
Calvin was a nothing. Not worth teaching. So how could he be worth
following?
My freedom was always just a few steps away, thought Calvin. All it took
was my realizing that Alvin was never going to accept me as his true friend and
brother. Taleswapper showed me that. I should thank him.
Hey, I already gave him all the thanks he deserved.
Calvin chuckled. Then he turned and headed back into the forest. He
tried to move as silently as Alvin always did, moving through the forest -- a
trick Al had learned from the wild Reds back before they either gave up and got
civilized or moved across the Mizzippy into the empty country of the west. But
despite all his efforts, Calvin always ended up making noise and breaking
branches.
For all I know, Calvin told himself, Alvin makes just as much noise, and
simply uses his knack to make us think he's quiet. Because if everybody
thinks you're silent, you are silent, right? Makes no difference at all.
Wouldn't it be just like that hypocrite Alvin to have us all thinking he's in
such harmony with the greenwood when he's really just as clumsy as everyone
else! At least I'm not ashamed to make an honest noise.
With that reassuring thought, Calvin plunged on into the underbrush,
breaking off branches and disturbing fallen leaves with every step.
Copyright © 1995 Orson Scott Card
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