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This is not really planned ... but here I am.
I don't usually pay attention to my post count and will probably not be aware when I reach 1000 posts or 2000, etc. But I can check my own profile and find my anniversary on Hatrack.
It's been an interesting year. I don't think I have any great insights to offer - maybe next time.
Who am I? I am usually the person behind the camera, recording the moments of my life without showing my own involvement. I'm the mom, the one who is most concerned about getting the bills paid (although I don't always have the means to do that). I am a procrastinating perfectionist - putting off the things I need/want to do until I can do them "right" - and often never doing them at all because of that. I am insecure. I have wants and dreams, but don't always know how to achieve my dreams. I am lazy - just ask my dad. At the age of 44, I should be over the sense of alienation and unworthiness I feel when I think about him, but I'm not.
I do some things right and some things wrong. I don't want to offend. I am insecure about my creativity - I don't think I have what it takes, so I don't try. I know that's ridiculous, yet that's how it is. And, I can't draw, either.
Here's how Hatrack is affecting my life: I find myself referring to posts on Hatrack in real-life conversation. "Someone on Hatrack posted a link to this article ... " I check the forum while at work (against company policy), often using the excuse of looking for a post in order to find the link to the article I mentioned.
I got to meet a few Hatrackers at Bob and Dana's wedding. This confirmed my idea of Hatrackers as terrific people (I got rides to the wedding and back home - about an hour's drive!). I find myself looking at people as though I will find those Hatrackers where I live. (Gee, that person looks like "X".)
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Wow. You seem older than a year. You must just be wise.
Thanks for contributing to our little community. Remember everytime you think something great about Hatrack, that you're a piece of that.
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I'm so glad I got a chance to meet you, even if we didn't get to talk much. Thanks for sharing a little bit more, it was neat to read.
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I also sing in the car and at church, even though my voice is ... unstable, to say the least (key, what key?).
I haven't decided what to do when I grow up.
And - one of my rides on April 2 (going home from BobnDanaCon) was ElJay, sister of the bride - how's that for going out of your way?
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Yeah, I know exactly how you feel. I'm the guy who drew the hat and then told people it's actually an elephant eaten by a snake! Posts: 4519 | Registered: Sep 2003
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CaySedai, you seem like you've been here longer than a year. I'm glad you're at the party. Don't ever leave.
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