I didn't make one at 1000. Or rather I did, then left the forums. Those months were hard ones, when I grappled with issues of my life, wrestled them, and won somewhat.
Regardless, here I am at 1100, again posting on this forum, so I may as well give some information about myself.
I am a high school student, who happens to view life competely indedependantly of school. I think the best way to describe myself is with several quick images:
a) Walking home, seeing a person with a cute smile, falling in love, then staying up until 2 AM telling random people about this. The next day I am going to fail a History test because I studied 0 minutes...I go tell the teacher the story, and he is amused -- gives me a 2 day extension. Yet I am still too deleriously happy, and don't end up studying at all. I did pass though.
b) Seeing a friend outside in the rain, curled and upset by the door, then trying to talk to her. When she tells me to go away, I then walk barefoot 20 feet away and sit there for 10 minutes until someone else comes and talks to her. Afterwards I felt bad that I could not help her myself.
c) Going to school and getting depressed by the tired atmosphere around me; eventually I can no longer control myself, so I leave, go home, grab my oil paints and a canvas and run to a scene of landscape beauty. I then sit for 2 hours painting it.
3 stories, 3 images. 3 minor chunks of 3 different days. Yet I think that they capture a large scope of my being. There is much more, but these 3 are images of which I feel I am happy to have represent me.
Posted by SteveRogers (Member # 7130) on :
Very nice. I can picture all three images. I'm glad you were able to wrestle your problems into a bloody submission. Hope you plan to stay even longer.
Posted by Jonathan Howard (Member # 6934) on :
Wow - these images could make a brilliant film. Hollywood, though, would destroy it. I think that these moments you ought to keep for life; I know I would - or at least try to cherish them.
I don't know how high-school is over there, but I wish I could be "seeing a friend outside in the rain, curled and upset by the door, then trying to talk to her. When she tells me to go away, I then walk barefoot 20 feet away and sit there for 10 minutes until someone else comes and talks to her. Afterwards I felt bad that I could not help her myself".
Who'm I to judge, but you're a great person, Phanto.
[ July 12, 2005, 05:41 AM: Message edited by: Jonathan Howard ]
Posted by Tatiana (Member # 6776) on :
<cheers for Phanto's landmark>
Posted by Phanto (Member # 5897) on :
Thanks for the compliments, Jonathan Howard . Still, those are only 3 moments, chosen semi-randomly. You should hear the whole story . But about my friend: I really wish I could comfort her when she needs it; I never have been able to. Wish I knew what to do.