Last night I had a dream of lying in bed with my baby, skin to skin, saying over and over to my husband and midwife, "He can't be dead, he's so warm". Then having to get out of bed to watch Olivia dance and being afraid that while I'm gone no one will hold him.
It's been haunting me all day and now I don't want to go to bed.
Posted by quidscribis (Member # 5124) on :
I'm sorry. It's hard. I hate dreams like that.
Posted by Bob_Scopatz (Member # 1227) on :
Darn. I'm so sorry.
Posted by Morbo (Member # 5309) on :
Wow, that's a rough dream.
Posted by Synesthesia (Member # 4774) on :
*hugs* I'm sorry
Posted by Dragon (Member # 3670) on :
(((((romany)))))
Posted by ketchupqueen (Member # 6877) on :
*mourns with romany* (((hugs))) Posted by Shan (Member # 4550) on :
(((romany)))
Posted by Will B (Member # 7931) on :
Dreams sometimes just highlight our anxieties. This one highlights one of yours, which shows us that you love your baby and don't want anything bad to happen. It isn't a pleasant thing, but take this gift: it reminds you that you love your baby, all the way down to your subconscious.
Posted by Raia (Member # 4700) on :
*hugs romany* I'm so sorry. *sends much love*
Posted by beverly (Member # 6246) on :
Sorry romany! This dream reminds me of one of the other threads when we talked about loss and the difficulty going on with life--feeling that you are betraying the memory of the one that died.
If I go to watch her dance (go on living) who will hold him (remember, hold to his memory, greiving)?
Posted by romanylass (Member # 6306) on :
beverly, I think that's a good analysis. I'm getting on with my normal life but feel bad about that sometimes.
Posted by Elizabeth (Member # 5218) on :
I have tried to write something in this thread for a day, waiting for something profound to opo out. Nothing has. It is sad, and I am sorry, and I have been thinking about you all day, romanylass.
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It's hard. I hate dreams like that.
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*mourns with romany* (((hugs)))