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This is a Mackillian appreciation thread because there are far too few of them, and she deserves 'em in spades.
Mack - I'm sorry things are rough right now. Though this sounds generic, I hope they work out for you. You've got the Ralphie Lovin' in your corner, toots.
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Even though we aren't joined at the virtual hip like we used to be, mac, I still love you and want everything that's not going well, the things I know about and the things I don't, to straighten out and give you peace.
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Big thanks to all of you. I had a rough spot last night. The CAT scan results came back negative. That's good and bad. Good because I'm not going to die of any nasty disease. Bad because the doc still doesn't know wtf is wrong with me. The doctor then said she thinks that a major component of it maybe be psychological.
I then burst into tears.
Now, for those of you who know me, that doesn't happen. I rarely cry. My poor doc.
She then says "I don't think it's in your head, I think it's a very real pain, but that at least PART of it is due to stress and anxiety."
Me. "How do I FIX it?!"
She wanted to try some valium to see if it would lessen the anxiety and stress. She also told me I am not to work until Monday...and only then if I feel up to it.
So.
I take the Valium when I get home. I didn't sleep the night before, so I crash an hour later.After three hours of fitful sleep, I get up and make myself something to eat (something I haven't done in weeks because of work).
Two hours later, I'm doubled over in pain and crying. I don't cry! That's at the pointed that I talked to Ralphie, 'cause I couldn't get control of myself enough to use my phone. Everything just smacked me at once with work and the mood stuff and the pain and how am I supposed to do ANYTHING when it hurts this much? How can I live like this until I see the GI specialist on MARCH 17th, more than a month away? How can I deal with crap at work? If I can't exercise, how can I keep control of my moods?
Why is it that I've done everything right and everything has gone so horribly wrong?
At the moment, I do feel better. I stopped the valium and took the vicodin and that's masked most of the pain. Has at least made it so I can do normal things. I'm going to see if I make my workouts just 3x a week and lower impact (ditching the running component for awhile and not playing racquetball unless I'm cooling down) if I can get through them.
Also, even though I've lost 3 sizes, I've only lost 9 lbs total since December 17,so sayeth the doc's office. That's a little confusing. o_O
So, yeah. I need to clean my apartment. 'Tis a mess.
Mack puts up with all my unbearable name jokes, such as *sMACK* and "Big Mack Attack!", so aside from all her other great qualities she's A-list in my book
Even when life's kicking her in the slats, she's still tougher than I am-I'd be wussing out like the stereotypical little girl who fell off her bicycle, but Mack grits it out and pushes on.
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Sorry the bubble bath suggestion didn't help last night... But hey at least now you know you can take a bath even if you don't have a drain plug. ((Mack)) AJ
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Grr, that sucks Mack . Most frustrating to hear that nothing the docs are doing seems to be working. Good luck on that March appointment though, hopefully something will come of it.
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Hey, if I could I'd take mack's pain for her...i'm good at tolerating pain. Since I can't Mack, lots of love and hang in there it can only get better
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'Nother update. The doctor put me back on Celexa to see if that is more effective with the anxiety since this whole thing STARTED just a week after I stopped taking that medication. She also restarted me on Topamax to regulate my moods better. Also gave me the go-ahead to keep taking the Vicodin until the pain subsides.
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Dear Mack, That's gotta be SO frustrating for you! I hope the med switching helps. I wish you didn't have such a long wait to see the GI specialist. I just hate waiting for appointments like that, and it seems like it's that way when you really need them now.
I know you are under extra stress with your job. Maybe a little while off would be a good thing. I wish there was something I could do to lessen your pain.
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Mack, I'm so sorry things are tough for you right now. Thank you so much for your advice midweek, you made a tough decision a lot easier for me.
quote:Also, even though I've lost 3 sizes, I've only lost 9 lbs total since December 17,so sayeth the doc's office. That's a little confusing. o_O
Sounds like all that exercise is paying off, and you're turning fat into some steely muscle. Pretty soon it's going to be "Amy Schwartzmackillian."--"Hey, you vant to see my biceps?"
Hang in there, mac. The bad times don't last forever.
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my first memory of mack was when some newbie was all "hey, who's this mack person" and i was all "dude, if you don't know mack, you're just a newbie!" and mack was all *heavenly choir of angels sings*
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